I was very nervous about my brother’s wedding on August 23rd, 2015. I wanted my brother’s wedding to go well and not have my adrenal insufficiency flair up and draw attention to myself. The focus should remain on the bride and the groom.
The Engagement Party
In the months leading up to the big day, I had to sit out on many activities. I could not attend my brother’s engagement party. After extreme frustration, a panic attack triggered by my abusive husband, and many tears, it was decided that I would spend the evening quarantined to the couch with my cat while he ventured to the party alone.
I was distraught. I saved up energy so that I could attend and show support for my brother and his beautiful fiancee. But in the end, I lost. I was a crying mess left alone on the couch. I sent my brother a very disappointed text message informing him I would be a no show. His response was perfect.
My brother knew I supported him, and that’s what mattered. I had to continue to remind myself of that fact during the entire wedding weekend, as I would randomly decline participating in social activities due to health. I had to leave the rehearsal dinner early because my social anxiety grew to an uncontrollable level.
“You look healthy!”
Weddings are also opportunities to see many people that you haven’t seen in a while. My brother’s wedding was the first time for several guests to see me since my own wedding in March of 2014. They kept repeating to me and my family how I looked healthy.
Towards the end of the night, my brother approached me and told me that I handled the weekend perfectly. Suddenly, all of my insecurities about being chronically diseased did not matter. The only thing that mattered was that my brother was proud of me. And I am incredibly proud of him.
To the Mr and Mrs
May your friendship and love for each other continue to grow and deepen daily.
May you always be able to share a laugh together, even when times seem really, really scary.
And may you never ever forget that you have me supporting y’all, always.
Love, your older sister.